Though i cant say i m old enough to preach abt my life. but i have enough experience to say the following.

among all the emotions u can name, its not anger nor sadness that brings you down the most.

Its Uncertainty and Disappointment.

many says ups and downs are common in life, i too agree.

i also believe that everyone reaps what they sow. everything happens for a reason.

its a crucial time for me at this moment, making the right decision, deciding between money or bond.

having the fact to face u is already torturing me. i cant convince myself to forgive u at this point of time. as much as i hope nth will happen to u. as much as i pray it will not change wat we have build.

they say blood is thicker than water. true. but how am i gonna bring myself to believe in u ever again?

its probably too late to save u.

Also dragged very long before this post hahah! Anyway after joining the company for 3 days. I went for the company trip with the Whole SG STAFF haha!

i joined just in time for this =D

its organised by our CHASS Malaysia’s colleagues and its held at the Somerset Resort, Kuala Rompin.

Before the trip i was discussing with my colleague, Fumi. Browsing thru the resort web and we was both quite amazed by it. BUTTT~~ when we reach there… TOTALLY DIFFERENT STORY~~ the beach is beautiful but the resort looks un-maintain and old.

but no matter wat, the trip was good coz of the company =D

on the coach. Millie and Brenda my manager. 

 the beach was not too bad. clean and HUGE!

 My unit. i was telling them, my unit comes free with the motor as transport haha!

 My roommate Chia yee. Nice girl with bad hearing coz she can tolerate my snore. hahah!

 Brenda and i. they say we look alike. DO WE?

 its looks like a desserted beach haha!

 the whole south wing.

 Clean blue sky and sea.

 HAHAHAH TUMMY TIME!

from left: Ta Ming (CEO. YES MY CEO!!!), Vince (Service engineer), Abbass (Service engineer), Andrew( Partner Alliance manager), Reddy (delivery technician)

 its really a pity they dun develop the place properly. they alr have such a nice beach as their selling point.

 the pool. DUN GET FOOL BY THE LOOK OF IT. i think they didnt clean it for a while. SADDD

its stunning though. the view. 

 had fun and games. didnt have time to take haha.

anyway there were ponies strolling across my unit. SO CUTE RITE!!

 i cant stop taking photo of the sky…

 eating grass.. MUZ be very hungry…

So pretty rite. 

 LOOK~ i love clear blue sky. makes u calm and at ease.

 lovellyyyy~

 dinner by the pool. our table. machiam wedding dinner haha!!

 as the sun set….

 look at the HUGE moon.

YES ITS THE MOON!! this is the first time i see such a huge and near moon. 

 pardon my lousy camera lah.. but i think still not too bad…

 presentation…

 Birthday cake for our september BABIES.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIE and SITI!! 

 blow candle.

 CHASSAsia family…NOt all but good enough =D

 nxt morning.

woke up early to take last few photos.

Stephanie. Really like her. very sweet and patient

 Joanna.

 Jennie. Pretty girl.

 she is the only one ard my age haha!

 OMG i LOOK SO TANN LAH~~ i like hee…

 Millie dear. she is always very patient and taught me alot of things..

 last shot of the sea.

 Remes. the only ang mo in my company. this photo is not doing him any justice. he is actually quite cute haha!

 SIGHHH~~ they loove to show their tummy…

 its fun when u see very one participating regardless their age or rank.

everyone work together and displayed CHASS Spirit

this is WAYY overdue. but anyway.

we had our very own family chalet =D

its at the civil service chalet. its very nice and very HUGE! damn good view. but its abit far…..

 met my uncle and aunt early to get all the neccessary stuffs.

when to the chalet office to get all the keys and stuff.

 waiting for my uncle to be back.

 let me show u the chalet. it has 2 storey and 2 bed rooms.

second floor.

 the huge toilet.

 1st bed room.

 LOOK AT THE ALMOST UNREAL view

 the 2nd room

 the mega living room.

 my uncle and aunt unpacking everything =D

 the front balcony

 the chalet from outside =D

 looking our to the beach….

 rested early and the next morning. more of my relative came.

making breakfast.

watching TV 

 the old ppl having breakfast haha.

the insist the view here better. 

 its really quite a view =)

 our dear princess bernice came late in the evening.

 and her mummy

waiting for the bbq to start haha! 

 walking to the beach.

hahaha look at my wacky uncle! 

 okay i look scary… but dear bernice looks cute so i post hee.

 look at the ridiculously blue sky!

the tranquility of the surrounding 

 2 half-naked man trying the set up the fire.

 with her grandma, looking very cranky.

 settin up for bbq =D

 playing with the tv controller.

then she realise her bun was in the way so she did this. HAHA! 

 my cousin. cooking for us =D

YUM YUM! 

 LULU BOY!! poor him having some skin irritation. so his lips all red.

 but still as cuteeee~

 all busy eating.

 my sis.

left: my sis and my cousin’s gf.

right: my aunt’s friend, my cousins. 

 happily bbqing. haha

look at all the SATAY!!

 didnt have time to take photos thru the nite. but it was a FUN nite!! everyone sit and eat and joke haha!

the nxt morning.

Lucas boy was tied with cling wrap coz he has “itchy” hands

 hahah i think he thinks its fun!

 my grandma trying to feed him till fat fat.

 haha looks happy!

 mr blurrr~

haha looks so MATURE! 

 chubby chubby…

 our HAPPY HAPPY LOVE~

my dad carrying him.

 with his mummy.

all the rest slacking in the room. coz got aircon. 

 so cute rite!

 the nxt thing u noe. he is trying to eat the oliment oil.

 haha he loves to bath unlike other babies.

 he loves playing with water.

 bernice sudden drag me and ask me to take photos with the COWS. haha

the cheeky girl. 

 happily naming all the cows.

 this is ms cowy

then she insist she wants to take for me. 

 yes she took this.

 maybe she will become a photographer nxt time. Who knows!

 haha lucas entertaining himself in the baskeT!

 ahah then bernice was playing with lemon.

 looking so happy!

 dinner was hotplate and steamboat. HMMM……

 steamboat =D

 he is aiming all the food.

 SOUP SOUP SOUP…

 all busy with dinner.

 haha posing.

 with the beautiful see as our backdrop.

 with cute ppl too.

 i would love it if this is my house =D

 the last day morning.

having breakie at the local hawker centre.

he also wanna eat. 

 he isnt very happy with the bread we gave him.

 bernice came after school. and we went for a swim =D

its really nice to have family gathering so often =D we all love it! 

If u noe me personally, u will noe i m a very “shoes” person.

As in i go very Bold on shoes. I get shoes that not everyone will dare to.

haha i dunno why hee.

Anyway i found this online! LOVE! i will love to get my hands on one of them =D

 This pair is by Harajuku Lovers. yes the Gwen Stefani line! Aint it adorable! i mean the combi of mash fabric and leather…..

 This is by Nine west!! HOTT~

*dear Santa, i have been a good girl this year. i dun ask for much, juz a pair of these will DO!! really i promised i will eat my green peas!*

Hmm… i was thinking of doing a post on my shoes collection wahahaha! i lost count of how many i have.

Maybe i will do one when i m free hee!!

Till then’ 

celebrated 2 very special day with 2 very special person =D

first is Little faith =)

she turns 1 mth old today!!!~

 our new member to the family =)

with my mum! 

 and faith’s great grandma.

 with my sis.

 haha trying to position her properly to take photo. i am damn pro with kids. DUN WORRY SHE WONT DROP!

there =D 

 my aunt trying to make her wake up ehe.

she looks SO much like her dad. 

everyone trying to play with her, while she slp till damn shiok 

 haha then she get cranky coz everyone disturbing her.

 she FINALLY open her eyes. HUGE eyes rite!

 then she started crying coz she was hungry….

 then stop

then wanna start again. haha DRAMA queen =) 

 bernice came and visit her new little cousin too!

 lucas was happily enjoying his time there.

 teaching him how to drink with a straw. hee

our handsome boyyy 

 his new talent. *clap clap*

 he will clap so hard when everyone claps hee.

 his is a happy baby!

 he loves baby too.

 look at how happy he is!

 we keep telling him “sayang baby” then he will stroke lil faith haha.

 bernice. not in a really good mood. hee

 then i left to meet up with kelly and all for Ter’s 21st birthday!!

HEY ITS FINALLY UR TURN!! stop saying u are younger! we are the SAME!!!

 birthday boy!

with His gf, hwee zi. 

opening his gift. 

 this is wat we gave him. Hope u like it okay!

 dearest kelly!

with the nice nice view. 

 the guys getting busy…

 Mr Simon in action!

 the gorgeous view we are facing.

trying very hard to get the fire up. 

 LOOK our dear Princess Kelly is setting up the fire too!!!

we called this bbq a high class one. look at the kind of food they got.  

 chicken leg.

turkey breast. 

chicken kabaab. 

 zechao our chief of the day.

yum yum! 

 =)

 Fried Beehoon

 Curry Chicken

 Kelly and simon

Zechao and Joanne 

Hwee zi and terence =) 

 Birthday boy also have to serve us!

 Happily eating hee.

 Groupie….

 His outrageous BIRTHDAY CAKE!!

HAHA its his uncle’s idea to place the candle like tat. 

 HAHAHAH MATCH rite!

Terence and his family. 

 and gfs.

 With Hweezi

 With us =)

 his camp mates and ITE friend.

 Cousins

cutting the cake. 

 HAHA Kana sabo.

 LOL!!!!

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERENCE!!!!!

 work has been stressful.

trying my every best to adapt.

i m not even me when i started working. i dun even have appetite to eat. ME! no appetite. can u guys believe it!

i hope i really will do well.

CARYN TAN! JIA YOU!!!

*** UPDATED WITH PHOTOS***

Had started working ytd!

so far so good.

alot to learn and digest. but ppl are really  nice here.

juz had my breakfast =D

Happily typing away hee~

Ppl sitting at my area are all damn quiet, they all call here the ghost town! haha.

HOPEFULLY it will be better or else i will have to self entertain =(

 work day 2~ wanted to take photo on day one but was goin late so hee.

 my breakfast =D

 ice milo from nearby canteen =D

 My desk. decor it alr =D

 and my new laptop from the company.

Yes i browsing non work related stuff but its before i start work okay!!

have been bloody busy. alot to learn, and digest.

Stress when phone ring. HEADACHE AH! hopefully will get better.

Will update soon again okay.

Nxt up on the list,

Baby Faith 1st mth

Ter’s 21st B’day

and Company trip =)

Woke up early in the morning to enjoy the sun of my birthday =D

get ready myself and headed to ION to meet my loves for lunch =D

 Hwee zi, me and kelly love @ the new swensens

 Vane with the cute new hair cut and our dear man sarnie =D

 ♥♥♥

 vane kelly and sarnie.

 kelly’s salad. tsk tsk tsk. look at her choice of food. u will noe why she so SKINNY hahah!

 Vane and her terayaki chicken pasta

 Ms stick and her salad HAHHA!

 MINE! clayfish pasta =D

 haha sarnie was juz talking away hee

 yours truly =D

 Hwee zi and her salmon baked rice

 haha my complimentary ice-cream =D

THANKS for the lunch LOVE! 

 walked ard and met up with my family at Kushin-bo @ suntec.

Had a sumptous dinner there =D

 haha myever so funny uncle!

 stupid sister.

 all the mess haha!

 it was so crowded~

 HUGE! alaska crab =D

 My dad was so happy with the crab i think he ate like a dozen of them!

my mum and her sashimi haha! 

 Thank you every single one of u for all the birthday msges and msn wishes and FACEBOOK MSG!

it really brighten up my days when some of the most unexpected ppl rmbs my birthday. But sadly, ppl whom i assume will not forget this day actually did. Not a single msg received. To me, if its impossible to send them during camp time, I would be even glad to receive it when u book out. But nth. not even on facebook. Not even on msn.

it may not be a special day for u, but it is for me.

After much procastinating. I m finally updating on my birthday party =D

it happened on a happy saturday =)

nice weather, great company and a happy me =D

 preparations =D

 welcome welcome =D

 GuestBook area

 THANK U GIRLS FOR HELPING!!! ~♥♥~

 mummy love =D she paid for all my food and my cake hee~

LOVE U!

 busy busy

 decor

 mummy dearest again~

 haha she is always camera ready!

 with peijun. my sis.

 ♥♥

 waiting for my guest =D

 girls girls girls

 with my aunt and my cousins

 my forever young grandma =)

 Qingling cousin

 my loves =D

 haha simon looks like a bypasser haha!

 Daddyyyy~

 thanks for all the help =D

 my sis

 peiying. my younger sis.

 the Tan Family

 with grandma

 the Tan and Yeo Family!

 kelly love =D

 vanessa! hah my sis keep bullying her and called her “maria” hahah!

 candid

 alyssa =D

 belinda =)

 berby is here =D

 with my aunt and bernice

 my grandma totally engross in her taiwanese drama. she didnt move out from the seat since 7pm.

 Food food food.

 the fave of the day!

 candid photos

 my sis and lucas boyy~

 sleepy boy~

 everyone lovesss lucas~

 remes and calvin came too! THANKS GUYS!

 marie marie marie~ ♥

 i totally love this photo! so nice =D

 melissa cousin and my sis.

 my mum and her mj kaki and her kids =D

 having fun by the pool!

 Esther =D

 bernice enjoying her dessert

 with my sis

 she bo chap me =(

 haha so cute!

 Jimmy and sihui! THANKS FOR COMING! i love u girl!

 lucas likes to touch ah chen’s botak head!

 little old man

 haha lucas looks stunned!

 lovely girls =D

 bao bao!!!

 grace =D

 Cuifen. THANKS FOR HELPING ME WITH THE PHOTOS! LOVE U! ♥

 Cake cutting time!

 my cake totally stolen my limelight. everyone fight to take photos of my cake and not me boo~

 but its of course a damn nice cake!

 HAPPY!

 making my wish.

 happy family!

 FAMILY PHOTO!

 DAMN NICE RITE!

 NYP loves

 Kelly honey!

 i cake wait to eat the cake.

 Regent loves

 cutting the cake

 girl power!

 Chass colleagues! THANKS FOR COMING!

 Grace and belinda =)

 the photo supposed to focus on me =( see i told u my cake too striking!

 Jo, grace, peng and bao.

 Lina.

 cuifen belinda and grace

 my present table =D

 Qiqi Cousin.

 with my lovely poster =D

 opening my present =D

from sarnie, vanessa, alyssa, bryan, raymond, chen and winnie =D I REALLY REALLY LOVE it! thanks for the effort =D

 from the sparkles =D thanks honey!

 from ter, hwee zi and simon. THANKS LOVE!

 from minyi love

 from cui and gang! THANKS GUYS!

 from kelly honey!! LOVE U LAHHH ♥♥♥♥

 scarfs from remes and calvin =D thanks guys really!

 ipod touch from my sisters

 from sihui, jimmy and esther. THANKS THANKS!!

 all the gifts. i love every single one of them. THANKS LOVES~ for all the effort put in to get all the gifts! ♥

 my family all went over to my hse for mj sessions.

LUCAS!!

 so happy haha! riding on his dad.

 2 tables!

 okay i would like to really thank everyone for this perfect party!

cuifen for being my photographer, my girls for helping me decor. THANKS THANKS!

and finally my family for making it so special!

LOVES ~♥♥~

ITS our monthly FAMILY DAY!

we shld make it a tradition really! family day are always fun =D

seeing my silly daddy making the joke of the day, my crazy mummy acting up like she always does and my sister, erm they are juz themselves. haha!

anyway, here it goes =D

 me and my sis preparing.

 Our well-known Mrs Tan and her 3 daughters hee~

the legendary TAN SISTERS! 

 attempt to take a family pic. BUT chopped my dad’s head off haha!

 MR Tan and again the 3 tan sisters

 IN THE CAR~

 after shopping much, we sat down at MOS burger. its my mum’s fave by the way.

 insist of taking a photo with mum.

 i dun understand why we always end up at Aston for dinner when we are at town haha! perhaps we have fetish for the queue! LOL!

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as my birthday party close in, everyone was asking wat i was wearing.

So i decided to go get something new =D

 with MARIE of course haha!

after completing the mission, we settle at han’s for late lunch =D  

Ms Marie. 

 we said goodbye for a day and she came back the nxt nite asking me to go for a movie.

How can i not call her Ms Random!

caught G.I. Joe with Marie’s bf wayne and his bro and their friends. Okay weird combi but ITS A FANTASTIC SHOW!

i really love the action and all the funny lines and of course the HOT guys and pretty babes!! haha! u guys shld go catch it! 

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Hit the sack at 4am and woke up at 11 to meet my dearest =D

 escalator at Ion. we was like “quick quick the lights here damn nice!” and snap snap snap hah!

 walk one round of their food opera. Interesting selections.

 we had our nails done and by then we was starving!

decided to try the newly revamp sushi tei at paragon.

 I must say, their new menu facinates me =D

 my parter-in-crime =D

no dun look at the chief. LOOK AT THE STACK OF FRESH SALMON SASHIMI! OMG! 

 its a really nice place. good ambience, great food!

 our sashimi platter. Tell me how not to love this beautiful looking fishes!

 the giantic yaki tori

my fave! Chirashi =D

Kelly love’s sushi platter =D 

 ended the night early so as to rest enough for my big day on the nxt day =D

okay i will update again on my birthday!

till then =D

Today marks the start of my real adulthood.

21 yrs old comes along with responsiblity and maturity.

I will step into a very new chapter on my life soon, i hope it goes smoothly.

as much as i dun wanna admit being old, I AM!

BUT HEY! its a good thing.

Hitting this new age seems to be more than just any other birthday, it means saying goodbye to student life and embracing my new identity in the society. I hope i will do a good job.

Many ask abt my birthday wishes, actually i didnt really put much thoughts to it till now.

I hope i will made something out with my career, make my parents proud of me.

I hope i can still be the best and lovely friend to all my love ones (u noe who u ppl r) =D

I hope i will still be as healthy and as strong as i m NOW!

Lastly, I shld keep my last wish to myself =D

Okay. I SHLD SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!

 will update soon!